If only... and why don't I?

If only I could just quit my job I would....Sign up for Red Cross training and spend a month in the gulf coast and help make a difference, save lives, feed and clothe people.
If only I made enough money to pay the bills while I was gone.
If only I had enough money to cover my insurance while I was gone.
If only I hadn't signed up for EH.
If only I could just say what the !@#& and just do it!

Why don't I just quit my job.
Why don't I just say what the !@#& and go sign up?!
I want to with every bit of me, I want to...
SO what's stopping me?
My own selfishness? Rational thinking? Fear of not having my bills paid? Fear of not having a job after I come back? What if I don't come back? Or want to come back? How can I persue this which I want to do. That which I am compelled to do.
Where's the money tree? I want money so I can give...