after Christmas warm fuzzies

Well here we are 2 days after the offical Christmas Day. I think most fences are mended, atleast one for sure, unsure about the other two. Anyhoo the family minus 1 celebrated the day by going to a buffet over in Lancaster and shopping at Park City. So It'sa start. I also made contact with a couple stray friends. So I feel a bit better. I still wish I had the things I long for and need instead of wishing for them. But I have no control over it. So oh well... life goes on and God will have to hear me moan and complain and try to in everything give thanks, but it's hard and it hurts. Now back to warm fuzzies. bunnies, kittens,peeps....

why I dread and hate the holidays

It used to be that Christmas Eve was a fun time filled with food and family and presents, joy and laughter and fun and peace. The family would gather and eat and watch tv, open presents, take pictures and have fun. Everything was fine till we all grew up and grow old and have significant others. Now itsa matter of whose house we going to and and what time. And well we can't cuz my family is gettin together and we don't have time we have to be here and there and blah blah blah. But hey you can come over to our house. We don't have time to come to your house, we only have time to devote to the significant others family so nope we were not going to spend a Christmas together as a family. Now we have to pack everything up and go elsewhere. And now we throw tradition out for one extended family and it hurts another family member. So now family members are hurt, pissed and it's NOT a merry christmas! It sucks I hate it and I want to go back to the traditional way things were done. But that wont ever happen again. So basically it sucks. life sucks. Especially since all I've ever wanted for Christmas was a husband, child, house, and a happy family. SO much for what I wish for! But Hey Merry Christmas to anyone who reads this. I hope and pray everyone else has had a happy holiday!